The minute you think you’re absolutely sure of where you need to be, you find yourself boarding the train to another station. I’m not sure where exactly I’m heading to next, I know for certain it’s somewhere beyond now.
In this singular month, I saw how much I’ve grown mentally and physically. I’m not who I use to be and it doesn’t feel like I’ve lost anything of me, it just feels like I’m so comfortable and okay with being who I am currently.
There’s plenty of room to keep going, I’m grateful for the progress so far.
I’ve come to realize no one punishes you for expressing your feelings. Those who make fun of you or tell you to be less sensitive are just people who are ashamed of this very human trait we have.
Feeling is the one thing that connects all of us, without it we’d only be fragments floating aimlessly.
It’s like the quote from the Thorah that’s mentioned in Nick & Norah (hey! that rhymed), about how the world is broken and it’s our job to piece it back together, then Nick tells Norah that maybe we’re the pieces?
I feel that way about my feelings. That when I feel, I’m piecing one small thing back together. What that piece represents, I’m not sure. I am sure that the piece is important to me as I grow.
I’m really grateful for the events I’ve gotten to experience in the last three years since turning 20 and I’m excited and very scared for all the experiences coming.
It’s natural to be afraid, I’ve told many times, yet the fear gets ahead of you, lodging itself in your throat, making you anxious.Nothing feels more liberating after however, beating your fear and your anxiousness makes you realize how minuscule fear is in the first place.
I hope everyone feels this liberation and ease.
I hope everyone feels calm and loved as I do.
I really hope they do.